Tonight,I am feeling okay but with a little hope and optimism.I had a pretty good day today.I simply ran a couple of errands for my mom and myself today.I had to go to a Wal-Mart in my area to pick up a few personal items for myself and I also went to a supermarket to pick up some stuff for dinner tomorrow night.When I was done,I headed for home.While in the midst of this,I stopped at a nearby Wendy's to have a small burger to tie me over until dinner.
When I got home with the stuff,I bathed and I had a light dinner,which was the rest of the homemade chicken noodle soup.I also managed to finish my personal computer work as well in spite of a couple of tough obstacles in the form of some program and server problems.But again,I managed to get it done and I was glad.
Tonight is the night that I am entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that all goes well for me.I am hoping that the night goes well and that everything is going to be good.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.But I am feeling hopeful that everything will work out and go well.
Last night,while watching a movie,I did another scan on my computer to check and see if I had successfully removed the virus and the spyware that were in my system last night after I did my initial scan.When the scan was completed,they were removed successfully and I felt better.It's great to have anti-virus software working 24/7 to make sure that your computer stays free of any security threats.
Again,I am hoping that the night goes well for me.I will be doing a tribute to Elvis Presley tonight because this is the week of his birthday.Again,I am hoping that the evening goes well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that everything goes well and that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and despite a minor frustrating thing to happen at the drug/alcohol rehab center,I managed to get out of it pretty well.It was a very good day and I had a smooth work shift.I simply did my job and when I finished,I dropped the clean laundry off and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and afterwards,I went home.When I got home,I registered my bills at Where's George and afterwards,we had a light dinner.
While I was eating,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and there were a couple of security threats.One of them being a virus,which was quarantined,and the other being spyware.I had to remove both of these from my system.At first,I was having a hard time but I managed to get everything done and I also managed to finally turn off my system restore to get everything done.Plus,I deleted all the stuff that was invading the database on my computer and turned off the system restore.After I am done here and after I type up a couple more e-mails,I am going to do another scan to see if the stuff was successfully removed from the system.I am hoping that it was.So far,I have had no problems with teh virus software,I have normally been fortunate to successfully get rid of any security risks.But again,I will do another scan just to make sure.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather outside is pretty windy and rainy at the moment.But I am safe and sound here at home and I am anticipating tomorrow.I am going to be doing my usual entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that the evening goes well and that everything will back to normal.It was a darg just doing only a couple of songs but tomorrow night,I am hoping that all will be well.Again,I am hoping that everything will be back to the way it was before.
During the time of the scan,I relaxed upstairs in my room for a while and I listened to several of my old 8-Track tapes that I have.Quite a few of these are still in good working condition and they play pretty good.It was wonderful to listen to these again.It was neat to just lay on my bed reading and listening to music.
As stated,tomorrow is my usual night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that it goes well.Earlier in the afternoon,my mom and I are hoping to get some grocery shopping done.
At the moment,my emotional state is pretty calm and serene.I've been having some ups and downs but I am hanging in there.I have been pretty close to the point where I was going to msturbate but I did not do it.I was playing with myself but I managed to stop myself.I now know that I have to be on guard because I do not want to masturbate and I do not want to start thinking about having sex with other men nor do I want to start doing that again.I am glad to be free of this and I no longer want to do that again.I could use some prayers right now.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and evening ahead.FJ
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and afterwards,I went home.When I got home,I registered my bills at Where's George and afterwards,we had a light dinner.
While I was eating,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and there were a couple of security threats.One of them being a virus,which was quarantined,and the other being spyware.I had to remove both of these from my system.At first,I was having a hard time but I managed to get everything done and I also managed to finally turn off my system restore to get everything done.Plus,I deleted all the stuff that was invading the database on my computer and turned off the system restore.After I am done here and after I type up a couple more e-mails,I am going to do another scan to see if the stuff was successfully removed from the system.I am hoping that it was.So far,I have had no problems with teh virus software,I have normally been fortunate to successfully get rid of any security risks.But again,I will do another scan just to make sure.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather outside is pretty windy and rainy at the moment.But I am safe and sound here at home and I am anticipating tomorrow.I am going to be doing my usual entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that the evening goes well and that everything will back to normal.It was a darg just doing only a couple of songs but tomorrow night,I am hoping that all will be well.Again,I am hoping that everything will be back to the way it was before.
During the time of the scan,I relaxed upstairs in my room for a while and I listened to several of my old 8-Track tapes that I have.Quite a few of these are still in good working condition and they play pretty good.It was wonderful to listen to these again.It was neat to just lay on my bed reading and listening to music.
As stated,tomorrow is my usual night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that it goes well.Earlier in the afternoon,my mom and I are hoping to get some grocery shopping done.
At the moment,my emotional state is pretty calm and serene.I've been having some ups and downs but I am hanging in there.I have been pretty close to the point where I was going to msturbate but I did not do it.I was playing with myself but I managed to stop myself.I now know that I have to be on guard because I do not want to masturbate and I do not want to start thinking about having sex with other men nor do I want to start doing that again.I am glad to be free of this and I no longer want to do that again.I could use some prayers right now.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and evening ahead.FJ
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty quiet work shift today,which was a nice change of pace for me.I actually did my job today with some peace and quiet for a change without having to worry about noise coming from the upstairs and no disturbances.It was really neat.I had a wonderful work shift and that was great.
I also had to go to the bank to get some money out for my mom because we needed to get some coffee,oatmeal and paper towels.After I withdrew the money,I went home to take another nap because I did feel tired.I simply put my PJ's back on and took a nap for a while.I needed to get some more sleep because I did not get to sleep right away.I had a tough time trying to get to sleep.But I did have a wonderful nap and I felt better and more relaxed.
After a light dinner,which was homemade chicken noodle soup,I went to run the errand for my mom and I also put some gas into my car's gas tank.After I got home,I finished my personal computer work and now,my day is complete.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the next day.It is another work day and I am just resting to save my energy for it.It is going to be another busy day and I am hoping that the shift goes over well for me.The shifts have been going well for me but I still hope for things to go well.You never know.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
I also had to go to the bank to get some money out for my mom because we needed to get some coffee,oatmeal and paper towels.After I withdrew the money,I went home to take another nap because I did feel tired.I simply put my PJ's back on and took a nap for a while.I needed to get some more sleep because I did not get to sleep right away.I had a tough time trying to get to sleep.But I did have a wonderful nap and I felt better and more relaxed.
After a light dinner,which was homemade chicken noodle soup,I went to run the errand for my mom and I also put some gas into my car's gas tank.After I got home,I finished my personal computer work and now,my day is complete.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the next day.It is another work day and I am just resting to save my energy for it.It is going to be another busy day and I am hoping that the shift goes over well for me.The shifts have been going well for me but I still hope for things to go well.You never know.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty not too eventful day today.The laundry pick up went by well and I even had a pretty decent lunch period afterwards.After I ate,I left for home.
When I got home,I waited for the mail to come in and after I brought it in,I got back into my PJ's and went back to bed.I did not get to sleep too much during the night so I took a nap to catch up on lost sleep.
After I woke up,I washed my hair and went shopping for my mom.I had to pick up a few things for dinner tonight and I had to act fast because my mom wanted us to eat pretty quickly.I actually got the shopping done within a few minutes and that went pretty well.After paying for the groceries,I went home and did not stop for anything on the way,except when a red light and a stop sign said so.
After I ate,I decided to finish up my computer work and just take it easy.I had no place to go because the weather was windy and the winds were blowing very strong in my area.Plus,I want to concentrate on the next day,which will be a work day.I don't want to wear myself out.I am tired as it is already.I just want to rest up and hope that the next day goes over well.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
When I got home,I waited for the mail to come in and after I brought it in,I got back into my PJ's and went back to bed.I did not get to sleep too much during the night so I took a nap to catch up on lost sleep.
After I woke up,I washed my hair and went shopping for my mom.I had to pick up a few things for dinner tonight and I had to act fast because my mom wanted us to eat pretty quickly.I actually got the shopping done within a few minutes and that went pretty well.After paying for the groceries,I went home and did not stop for anything on the way,except when a red light and a stop sign said so.
After I ate,I decided to finish up my computer work and just take it easy.I had no place to go because the weather was windy and the winds were blowing very strong in my area.Plus,I want to concentrate on the next day,which will be a work day.I don't want to wear myself out.I am tired as it is already.I just want to rest up and hope that the next day goes over well.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly and I also joined in on a discussion during the time on mental illness and how people who were hospitalized tried to readjust to society after they were released.The talk was very informative and I got a lot out of it.I learned some things that I never knew before.I also shared my background and what led me to have the emotional issues that I am struggling with.I shared everything and that actually made me feel like a part of the group of people that were there.It was really great.The work day went by easier than ever and I had a wonderful day on the job.As usual,after I finished my job,I simply dropped the clean laundry off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and stopped at a couple of places before going home.Overall,a pretty good day.
My first support group meeting at the church this year was another wonderful meeting.The men and I shared our holiday stories and I also learned a little bit more on how to hold my own.It was really wonderful to be there and just listen and hear as well as to be heard and listened to.It was a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting next Tuesday night.I am hoping that it is as wonderful as the one tonight.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the day ahead.I am hoping that everything works out for me tomorrow and I also hope that I learn some more new things.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that this goes by very smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
My first support group meeting at the church this year was another wonderful meeting.The men and I shared our holiday stories and I also learned a little bit more on how to hold my own.It was really wonderful to be there and just listen and hear as well as to be heard and listened to.It was a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting next Tuesday night.I am hoping that it is as wonderful as the one tonight.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the day ahead.I am hoping that everything works out for me tomorrow and I also hope that I learn some more new things.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that this goes by very smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, January 07, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.I woke up a little late in the afternoon today.I was hoping that I could wake up a little earlier but couldn't and/or didn't.I woke up around 12:45pm.
After I woke up,I had a bowl of cereal and an hour and a half later,I heated up some slices of pizza for lunch.While I was online,I received a phone call from that friend that I was supposed to get together with yesterday and we got together today.He showed me the new stereo system that he bought and the new washer and dryer.It was wonderful.After checking those out,I left and finished an errand that I was doing for my mom.Overall,not too eventful of a day but I got some stuff done.
Tonight,I went to my first anger management/conflict resolution group meeting of the year and it was wonderful.After a 3 week break,it was great to finally get back to the meetings and share some stuff that I had to get off of my chest.I told them everything that had happened to me during the holiday break,such as my father being in town unexpectedly and the overbearing preaching that he did to my brother in-law.Plus,I shared the negative vibes that I felt when I was in the same room with him and how I really did not like it.But I am glad that it is all over and I had a wonderful New Year's that actually made me forget about all of that.Again,it was wonderful to be among them again and sharing what I had to share.
Last night,I went out and had a few drinks with the guys and I also had a light snack.While I had a great time having some laughs and fun,I was hoping to do at least a couple songs or more but the bartender didn't know how to work the karaoke machine due to her not having the instruction sheet on how to do it.That in itself was disappointing because I only managed a meager two songs on Saturday night.But I am hoping that this coming Saturday night is where everything is back to normal and I won't have to wait too long to do my usual allotment.Again,I am hoping that and I hope that it will be indeed back to normal.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes over well.I also have my first support group at the church meeting of the new year.I am hoping that this meeting also goes well.
That was my day today and my night last night as well as my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
After I woke up,I had a bowl of cereal and an hour and a half later,I heated up some slices of pizza for lunch.While I was online,I received a phone call from that friend that I was supposed to get together with yesterday and we got together today.He showed me the new stereo system that he bought and the new washer and dryer.It was wonderful.After checking those out,I left and finished an errand that I was doing for my mom.Overall,not too eventful of a day but I got some stuff done.
Tonight,I went to my first anger management/conflict resolution group meeting of the year and it was wonderful.After a 3 week break,it was great to finally get back to the meetings and share some stuff that I had to get off of my chest.I told them everything that had happened to me during the holiday break,such as my father being in town unexpectedly and the overbearing preaching that he did to my brother in-law.Plus,I shared the negative vibes that I felt when I was in the same room with him and how I really did not like it.But I am glad that it is all over and I had a wonderful New Year's that actually made me forget about all of that.Again,it was wonderful to be among them again and sharing what I had to share.
Last night,I went out and had a few drinks with the guys and I also had a light snack.While I had a great time having some laughs and fun,I was hoping to do at least a couple songs or more but the bartender didn't know how to work the karaoke machine due to her not having the instruction sheet on how to do it.That in itself was disappointing because I only managed a meager two songs on Saturday night.But I am hoping that this coming Saturday night is where everything is back to normal and I won't have to wait too long to do my usual allotment.Again,I am hoping that and I hope that it will be indeed back to normal.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes over well.I also have my first support group at the church meeting of the new year.I am hoping that this meeting also goes well.
That was my day today and my night last night as well as my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.I was hoping to spend a few moments with an old friend and he was called out of his house by his brother.Oh well.I did manage to get a few things done.I went shopping today at a few stores.I bought a couple more DVD's at a store that is closing.I also went to a Wal-Mart in my area and bought a couple of things that I needed.Last but not least,I went to a supermarket to pick up a can of frozen orange juice for tomorrow.In between that,I did buy some pizza,which I will be eating for lunch tomorrow.Overall,not too bad of a day.
Last night was not a very good night.It wasn't really an off night.But there were over 40 people at the place last night.Apparently,there was a private birthday party going on and those party guests were the vast majority of who was waiting to sing.I only managed to do 2 songs but I did help out in singing The Beatles song Birthday for the person celebrating their birthday.I guess that it was better than not singing but it still felt like nothing to me.After I did my second song,I left for home.
I will be going back out tonight.I am going to do at least a couple more songs that I was hoping to do last night and I might even do a couple more.At least,there will not be too many people there.It will be just a few guys chilling for a while enjoying a drink or two.So,I will be going out to enjoy a drink or two and get some more singing in that I couldn't do last night.Hopefully,next week will be back to normal and I can get my usual allotment in so I can feel happier.
Tomorrow is my day off.The only thing that I have planned is that I have my Monday night anger management/conflict resolution support group.I am hoping that the meeting goes well for me.I do have a lot to tell them.
That was my day today and my night last night,including my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ
Last night was not a very good night.It wasn't really an off night.But there were over 40 people at the place last night.Apparently,there was a private birthday party going on and those party guests were the vast majority of who was waiting to sing.I only managed to do 2 songs but I did help out in singing The Beatles song Birthday for the person celebrating their birthday.I guess that it was better than not singing but it still felt like nothing to me.After I did my second song,I left for home.
I will be going back out tonight.I am going to do at least a couple more songs that I was hoping to do last night and I might even do a couple more.At least,there will not be too many people there.It will be just a few guys chilling for a while enjoying a drink or two.So,I will be going out to enjoy a drink or two and get some more singing in that I couldn't do last night.Hopefully,next week will be back to normal and I can get my usual allotment in so I can feel happier.
Tomorrow is my day off.The only thing that I have planned is that I have my Monday night anger management/conflict resolution support group.I am hoping that the meeting goes well for me.I do have a lot to tell them.
That was my day today and my night last night,including my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ
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