Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I headed out to go to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After that,I headed straight home to register the bills on the Where's George site.I went back out after that to head over to the post office to mail out an important payment that I had to mail out.After that,I headed over to the bank again to withdraw a little bit more money so I could stop by a local church to pick up a fish fry dinner for myself.After that,I headed straight home to eat it.
On the way home,I almost wound up in a car accident when a driver who tried to make a left turn onto the avenue when I was going straight,but I managed to act fast by swerving to avoid us crashing into each other.I continued onward towards home,though I was a little shaken by this.
When I got home,I ate my fish fry dinner and enjoyed an episode of a classic TV series that I popped into the DVD player.I was hoping to go to my usual Friday night recovery group,but the intense rainy weather kept me home.I simply relaxed and did some more personal PC work and still managed to get my recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I then started to plan my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day and was a little bit better than yesterday,though it could've been much better if it weren't for the almost accident that thankfully didn't happen.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.The root cause of this was all the stress that I had yesterday and I was still feeling stressed as a result of all of these things that happened yesterday.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins.I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short and I asked that I be forgiven for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with hardly any negative things happening until that near accident in the early evening.It did stress me out a little bit,but I think that I will fell better after a good night's sleep.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Please continue praying for me and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network meeting tomorrow morning and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,but has hit some bumps.I had a pretty stressful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and proceeded to move forward with the rest of my day,but that was when the bumps came about.
While I was on my way to have lunch somewhere,My driver's side rear wheel went flat.A cab driver pulled up aside me and informed me of it.I had to pull into a parking lot of a plant and called my niece,who advised me to call her mother,which I did.She came and picked me up and dropped me off at home and I was at home for much of the day as a result of me not having my car.I did my personal PC work and I awaited anyone that could help.
I called my nephew,but he advised me to call his father,which I did and his father got me going.He put air in my wheel's tire and advised me to take it to the local Dunn Tire,which I did and I was fortunate to get it in at that moment.They simply fixed the rim by placing a new sealant on it and they put the tire back on and inflated it.After paying the costs of the repair,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for dinner and I headed straight home to eat it quickly as I had my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group to attend and that actually made me feel a lot better after all the stresses of today.When it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I went inside and I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,it was a pretty stressful day.I did manage to get my recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,with the road being bumpy today,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning upon arising,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals and sexual images of men clouded my mind at that point.I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better and believed that I was forgiven.Though I had a pretty stressful day today,I had no problems with temptation and that was pretty good.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.Though I did,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,lease continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily as I never know what the next day and the day after next will have.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch,but got a bag lunch for today.After receiving that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped a local Dollar tree store to pick up a bottle of tomato juice.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my given bag lunch and had a glass of tomato juice with it.After that,I did my personal PC work quickly and I relaxed for the rest of the early afternoon reading a book.
Later on,I headed over to my church for a Lenten dinner in the church fellowship hall,which was great and wonderful.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was being overwhelmingly tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father and I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges that were coming at me from all sides.I asked for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed real hard.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father and I didn't cease until the temptations that I was experiencing had dissipated into nothing.When I was finished praying,I felt much better and much stronger.This wasn't the only time I had to pray for something.Later on,I had to pray again because negative thoughts were racing through my mind and I was saying things to myself that were the opposite of what my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ preached and taught through the Holy Bible.Since I am a combination BPD/Schizophrenia as far as my psychiatric disability goes,anything can happen in my mind and at times,what can go through my mind can be either negative or even totally bad and/or evil.I was grabbing my head as these things were happening as I wanted them to stop as I felt that I was being tortured by unseen forces,such as Satan and his minions,and hearing voices and other sounds in my head.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer before it got worse.I prayed real hard and asked that my Heavenly Father clear my head of anything that was going through it in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and even demanded that Satan and his minions hit the road as I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction that they wanted.They,Satan and his minions,are now using everything in their power,even taking advantage of the fact that I am a combination BPD/Schizophrenic to start trouble and try to cause commotion with my mentality by trying to put things in my head that I don't want in there.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,my mind was clearer and I felt a lot better.I went through the rest of the day without any problems,but I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I need to stay on guard as a result of that because Satan and his minions can attack at any times with overwhelming temptations and use my psychiatric disability to put negative and evil thoughts into my head to make me shout out hateful remarks to myself or to try to keep me caught in the grip of other negative emotions,such as anger,sadness and other sorts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me as I am going through this very difficult time.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments sections as I really need some affirming words right now.I am going through a very difficult time right now and I need both prayerful and positive verbal support like never before.They both help keep me going and also,keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency for my meeting with my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the agency.
The meeting went wonderfully well.They simply informed that they will be transferring me to a new counselor/coach and advised me to continue putting in the job applications.After the meeting,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch after that at home.I also e-mailed my resume to a couple of employers that I learned about via e-mail.
A little later on,I went out to get some gas and after that,I stopped by to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed for the public library to print a job application from an employer's website.After that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recomended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was being overwhelmingly tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were starting to cloud my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images that were clouding my mind.This happened upon arising out of bed and sitting down.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges as I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father in any way.I prayed real hard and I asked for that strength.I prayed and I prayed because I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were coming at me from all sides.When I was finished praying,I felt better and stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day without any problems with temptation to act out in any way.My mind was clear and I simply went on with what I had to do.It was great that I had nothing to worry about in regards to temptations and anything sexual.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also would appreciate it if you would leave me an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day as it reaffirms that I am not alone.I also need both of these types of support because I get overwhelmed by temptations to act out when least expected and I do need prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.They also help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,they keep both my determination and motivation strong.I want to overcome this terrible SSA and I need all the support that I can get from everyone who follow my blog and read my posts.I also want to heal and I still need all the support that I can get.The SSA struggle is a very difficult struggle indeed and nobody who struggles should struggle and endure alone.It is jusy that when I don't get any positive verbal support in the comments section by visitors and/or curiosity seekers,I feel alone as a result of that.I would really appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to an evening Lenten dinner at my church's fellowship hall,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After that was done,I dropped a friend off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I laid down to read and I relaxed while doing so.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and later on,a little bit more reading.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today upon arising and sitting down,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which gave way to lusting and fantasizing.Fortunately,I stopped myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall while asking for the forgiveness.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.For much of the day,I had no problems with temptation until the mid afternoon when I laid down to read.I was reading a book by a Christian author on how anyone can find and have strength in their own weakness and the temptations were coming at me strong.I put down the book and got up off the bed.I went to a chair and sat down.I prayed to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and i prayed.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father that I was being tempted to do.I was tempted to repeat the same pattern that I gave into this morning upon arising,but again,I prayed for strength instead of giving in.I prayed hard and threw everything on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I am learning day after day that Satan and his minions never rest.They will try to get anyone who worships the sovereign Lord and creator of all things to sin against him and to also think that they have no hope because of their sinful conditions.But I know one thing,as every other Christian knows,that Satan and his minions are liars.There is hope for everyone who call upon our Heavenly Father,the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,to ask him to help them with their struggles and to help them overcome their struggles.He helps us with the help of his son Jesus Christ,the Lord and savior who was sent to Earth to not only bring people back to his father,but to die for our sins so we would never be enslaved to sin ever again as his precious stainless blood washes away all sins.I know that my Heavenly Father heard me as I felt much stronger after I was finished praying.I know that whenever I ask my Heavenly Father for something,I know that I get it because I feel it whenever I pray,with today being a very good example of that.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I also need all the positive verbal support that I ca get.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time in my life and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.They both help keep me going.They also reaffirm that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the job placement agency,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I quickly showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation that was again well received.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work.After that was over,I decided to pop a movie into the VCR part of my VCR/Region Free Format Free DVD player/recorder and I watched the movie while relaxing.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
I also went out for a bit to get myself a gallon of milk from the local Super Wal-Mart.I also got myself a small bottle of orange juice.After that,I went to another local business to pick up a job application.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk and the juice in the fridge and I sat down to complete the job applications.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and relaxed.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.It's bad enough struggling with mental illness,but it is another to struggle with SSA.Why?It's because I have to deal and put up with unnatural sexual desires that I have.Today,I was tempted to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I was tempted to lust and fantasize after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these images to get them erect and/or near to the point of orgasm and stopping.I threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and asked for that strength.I didn't cease praying until the temptations had died off.I am still learning that the more I resist temptations to act out in this particular way in regards to SSA,the more stronger they come back each time.Satan and his minions never give up.Today was no exception.After I was finished praying,I felt much better and much stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me the strength that I asked for.I escaped the rest of the day unscathed.Fellow blog followers and readers,while I did go through the rest of the day unscathed,I am again asking for your continued prayerful support.I still need your prayers as these terrible temptations might/will come back stronger and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left for me in the comments section.Your encouraging comments do help and I would really like it if y'all leave me some positive verbal support,alongside your prayers.They both do help in a lot of ways as they have power beyond imagination.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in the applications that I picked up today,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ