Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After that was done,I dropped a friend off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I laid down to read and I relaxed while doing so.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and later on,a little bit more reading.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today upon arising and sitting down,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which gave way to lusting and fantasizing.Fortunately,I stopped myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall while asking for the forgiveness.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.For much of the day,I had no problems with temptation until the mid afternoon when I laid down to read.I was reading a book by a Christian author on how anyone can find and have strength in their own weakness and the temptations were coming at me strong.I put down the book and got up off the bed.I went to a chair and sat down.I prayed to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and i prayed.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father that I was being tempted to do.I was tempted to repeat the same pattern that I gave into this morning upon arising,but again,I prayed for strength instead of giving in.I prayed hard and threw everything on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I am learning day after day that Satan and his minions never rest.They will try to get anyone who worships the sovereign Lord and creator of all things to sin against him and to also think that they have no hope because of their sinful conditions.But I know one thing,as every other Christian knows,that Satan and his minions are liars.There is hope for everyone who call upon our Heavenly Father,the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,to ask him to help them with their struggles and to help them overcome their struggles.He helps us with the help of his son Jesus Christ,the Lord and savior who was sent to Earth to not only bring people back to his father,but to die for our sins so we would never be enslaved to sin ever again as his precious stainless blood washes away all sins.I know that my Heavenly Father heard me as I felt much stronger after I was finished praying.I know that whenever I ask my Heavenly Father for something,I know that I get it because I feel it whenever I pray,with today being a very good example of that.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I also need all the positive verbal support that I ca get.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time in my life and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.They both help keep me going.They also reaffirm that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the job placement agency,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ