Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch,but got a bag lunch for today.After receiving that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped a local Dollar tree store to pick up a bottle of tomato juice.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my given bag lunch and had a glass of tomato juice with it.After that,I did my personal PC work quickly and I relaxed for the rest of the early afternoon reading a book.
Later on,I headed over to my church for a Lenten dinner in the church fellowship hall,which was great and wonderful.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was being overwhelmingly tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father and I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges that were coming at me from all sides.I asked for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed real hard.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father and I didn't cease until the temptations that I was experiencing had dissipated into nothing.When I was finished praying,I felt much better and much stronger.This wasn't the only time I had to pray for something.Later on,I had to pray again because negative thoughts were racing through my mind and I was saying things to myself that were the opposite of what my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ preached and taught through the Holy Bible.Since I am a combination BPD/Schizophrenia as far as my psychiatric disability goes,anything can happen in my mind and at times,what can go through my mind can be either negative or even totally bad and/or evil.I was grabbing my head as these things were happening as I wanted them to stop as I felt that I was being tortured by unseen forces,such as Satan and his minions,and hearing voices and other sounds in my head.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer before it got worse.I prayed real hard and asked that my Heavenly Father clear my head of anything that was going through it in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and even demanded that Satan and his minions hit the road as I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction that they wanted.They,Satan and his minions,are now using everything in their power,even taking advantage of the fact that I am a combination BPD/Schizophrenic to start trouble and try to cause commotion with my mentality by trying to put things in my head that I don't want in there.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,my mind was clearer and I felt a lot better.I went through the rest of the day without any problems,but I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I need to stay on guard as a result of that because Satan and his minions can attack at any times with overwhelming temptations and use my psychiatric disability to put negative and evil thoughts into my head to make me shout out hateful remarks to myself or to try to keep me caught in the grip of other negative emotions,such as anger,sadness and other sorts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me as I am going through this very difficult time.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments sections as I really need some affirming words right now.I am going through a very difficult time right now and I need both prayerful and positive verbal support like never before.They both help keep me going and also,keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ