Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency for my meeting with my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the agency.
The meeting went wonderfully well.They simply informed that they will be transferring me to a new counselor/coach and advised me to continue putting in the job applications.After the meeting,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch after that at home.I also e-mailed my resume to a couple of employers that I learned about via e-mail.
A little later on,I went out to get some gas and after that,I stopped by to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed for the public library to print a job application from an employer's website.After that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recomended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was being overwhelmingly tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were starting to cloud my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images that were clouding my mind.This happened upon arising out of bed and sitting down.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges as I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father in any way.I prayed real hard and I asked for that strength.I prayed and I prayed because I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were coming at me from all sides.When I was finished praying,I felt better and stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day without any problems with temptation to act out in any way.My mind was clear and I simply went on with what I had to do.It was great that I had nothing to worry about in regards to temptations and anything sexual.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also would appreciate it if you would leave me an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day as it reaffirms that I am not alone.I also need both of these types of support because I get overwhelmed by temptations to act out when least expected and I do need prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.They also help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,they keep both my determination and motivation strong.I want to overcome this terrible SSA and I need all the support that I can get from everyone who follow my blog and read my posts.I also want to heal and I still need all the support that I can get.The SSA struggle is a very difficult struggle indeed and nobody who struggles should struggle and endure alone.It is jusy that when I don't get any positive verbal support in the comments section by visitors and/or curiosity seekers,I feel alone as a result of that.I would really appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to an evening Lenten dinner at my church's fellowship hall,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ