Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I headed out to go to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After that,I headed straight home to register the bills on the Where's George site.I went back out after that to head over to the post office to mail out an important payment that I had to mail out.After that,I headed over to the bank again to withdraw a little bit more money so I could stop by a local church to pick up a fish fry dinner for myself.After that,I headed straight home to eat it.
On the way home,I almost wound up in a car accident when a driver who tried to make a left turn onto the avenue when I was going straight,but I managed to act fast by swerving to avoid us crashing into each other.I continued onward towards home,though I was a little shaken by this.
When I got home,I ate my fish fry dinner and enjoyed an episode of a classic TV series that I popped into the DVD player.I was hoping to go to my usual Friday night recovery group,but the intense rainy weather kept me home.I simply relaxed and did some more personal PC work and still managed to get my recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I then started to plan my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day and was a little bit better than yesterday,though it could've been much better if it weren't for the almost accident that thankfully didn't happen.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.The root cause of this was all the stress that I had yesterday and I was still feeling stressed as a result of all of these things that happened yesterday.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins.I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short and I asked that I be forgiven for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with hardly any negative things happening until that near accident in the early evening.It did stress me out a little bit,but I think that I will fell better after a good night's sleep.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Please continue praying for me and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network meeting tomorrow morning and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ