This particular post on here will be a catch-up on the last two days.I forgot to post my day yesterday.My rocky road to recovery still continues moving forward.
Yesterday,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.I showered quickly afterwards and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed over to my monthly Men's Network meeting,which went well,although not too many men attended this time around.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a nearby Salvation army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Sears to pay a bill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I headed back out to another area of the county where I live and I went shopping at the Salvation Army thrift store that was there.After having lunch at a nearby Denny's,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something for dinner and other things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I did some more personal PC work.I had my light dinner and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.It was a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,I had a wonderful and eventful day.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee to wake up.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in a suit and I went to church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for lunch and a few other needed things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my lunch and put the other stuff that I bought away.After that,I did my personal PC work.After that,I went out to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I went to another Super Wal-Mart that is in another area of the county that I live.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Over the past couple of days,my rocky road to recovery still continues to move forward,I had been on a roller coaster ride in regards to my struggles with SSA.My BPD/Schizophrenia have stayed stable thanks to my medication,but my SSA struggles have not been stable.I have been enduring overwhelming temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA and I have given in a couple of times,and on both occasions,I have asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ while at the same time,I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short on both of these occasions.These were the usual fantasizing and lusting after other men and manipulating my genitalia to these images of men clouding my mind.Temptation can strike anytime anywhere and even this morning,I was tempted twice and I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resists these overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed for strength to help me fight and resist and after I was finished,I felt better and much stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for and needed.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now and desperately as I am really going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.They both reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They both help keep me going and keep both my motivation and determination strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in another job application,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my last two days and my hopes and plans for the start of the new week ahead.FJ