Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after having a light lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.Since it was a pretty bitterly cold day,I put my long thermal underwear on before putting my clothes on.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the local Radio Shack to pick up a few fuses for my stereo receiver.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed to a local supermarket that was across the street to pick up a small jar of pizza sauce.After that,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my my prescription medication.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and I inserted a brand new fuse in the back of my stereo receiver and now,my stereo is working beautifully.After that,I changed into my sweatsuit and did some more personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and took it easy while reading.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of my struggles.Today,as soon as I got up out of bed,I fell by giving into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men and even transgendered people were crossing my mind.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out because my Heavenly Father always wants to know everything that is there and he knows when I am hiding and/or leaving something out.I prayed real hard for my heavenly Father's forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after I was finished praying,I felt relieved and much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.After that,I went on with my day with no worries.I stayed out for some of the day and I kept my mind on things.It helped me take my mind off of the negative things associated with SSA and kept my mind on constructive and needful things.Though I did escape the rest of the with no worries,I know that there is tomorrow and the days ahead.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and please don't be afraid to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I both need prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things for today.I first went to the bank to withdrew some money.After doing that,I headed over to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I withdrew at the Where's George site.After that was done,I did more personal PC work and when that was done,I relaxed for a bit.
After eating early tonight,I left the house again to go to a Celebrate Recovery group in another area of the county where I live.I headed there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.I met some wonderful men there and I shared a lot.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the SSA struggle being my most difficult.Today,I was tempted only minimally to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect to this temptation to fantasize and lust.When the temptation hit,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I asked for the strength to fight and resist these temptations.I ask for this strength because I can't fight and resist without it.It is what the scripture at James 4:7b says about resisting the devil and he will flee from you.The thing is that Satan himself will run away from me for the time being,but he will come back and make the temptations even stronger.The more resistance is put up,the more stronger the temptation comes back because Satan and his minions make sure of that.I escaped today unscathed thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue in prayer for me and also,please don't be afraid of leaving me an encouraging word or two in the comments.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support real badly.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and please also continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of going to church on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went as well as usual.After that was over,I headed for a local kitchen for lunch.After eating lunch,I decided to take a drive to locate a church where a Celebrate Recovery group is being held this and every Friday.I succeeded in finding it and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to turn in some empty cans and bottles.After collecting the money for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and did some more personal PC work while relaxing for a bit.After that,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I got dressed and headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which also went wonderfully well.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into some night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the SSA struggle the most difficult of the two.I have to put up with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA and at times,it can be both energy draining and emotionally exhausting.Today,soon after I got out of bed,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images that were clouding my mind.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling and I prayed real hard for my Heavenly Father to forgive me.I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Later on in the day,I was plagued by the temptation to do it again,but this time,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and threw the terrible temptation on him.I asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist the overwhelming temptation that was trying to take over me.I threw it all on my Heavenly Father.In this way,I was showing that terrible temptation that I owned it and not it owning me.I prayed real hard for the strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.After I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and I also felt nothing in terms of temptations.I felt stronger and also,much better.Fellow blog followers,though I have been doing this and I am still working on it,I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things to help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue offering your prayerful and positive verbal support by leaving me a comment or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of attending a Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I got dressed real quickly.After getting dressed,I headed over to the local hospital to get that much needed blood work done.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly and I had my usual breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After I had my breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed again as I had to leave the house again for a few important things.
I stopped at the house of a friend of the family and picked up something that they were saving for me.After that,I headed over to a local close out store to buy a box of cereal.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a bottle of salad dressing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and I did some more personal PC work while relaxing.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.I also relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Though I am still slowly getting into the swing of this,I am working on making frequent prayer throughout the day a part of my life.Today,I was minimally tempted to fantasize,lust and manipulate my genitals to unwholesome images of men,but I turned these terrible and overwhelming temptations to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to fight and resist these temptations.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt stronger and moved on with the rest of the day and I was plagued by temptations like I have been plagued with in the weeks and days before.It is great that I am now relying on my own Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ more than ever before and the feeling that I am getting is wonderful.While I am doing this and still working on it,I am again asking that all of my fellow blog followers to please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate a kind and encouraging word or two in the comments section as I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.It also helps keep me going and builds both my self confidence and self esteem.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of both my morning and evening Holy Bible study groups,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and though originally I was going to go to the local hospital for that much needed blood work to be done,I chose to put it off until tomorrow as I wasn't up to doing it.I simply jumped into the shower and cleaned myself up.After that,I ate my usual quick breakfast and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Burger King for a sandwich.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and decided to do some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted again to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to these unclean and unwholesome images.Again,I turned the temptations over to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist these urges,which were pretty overwhelming.I asked for this strength in the name of my Heavenly Father's son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as these temptations were overwhelming and I also didn't want to grieve my Heavenly Father in any way by giving into these terrible temptations.I felt much better and much stronger after praying and I went on with my day.For the rest of the time being today,since I was out in the community,my mind was totally free of anything unclean,impure and unwholesome.I didn't want these unnatural desires that I have to won me.I wanted to show them that I owned them.Though I did escape unscathed today,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to my healing from this terrible SSA one day at a time.I also have to keep in mind that each and every time temptations are resisted,they can come back stronger than before and those terrible temptations can be very overwhelming at times.Fellow blog followers,while I am still working on the frequent prayers throughout the day for myself,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section as I do need some positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Please do both of these things for me as both would be appreciated.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to the local hospital and getting that much needed blood work done,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I was hoping to go to the local hospital for blood work,but had a pounding headache.I simply showered and had my usual quick breakfast,alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was done,I took something for my headache and I laid down for a while and when the pain was all gone,I got up and got dressed as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to the public library to print something important from my e-mail and after that,I did a little shopping at a Goodwill thrift store nearby.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed for a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light evening meal,I decided to relax and watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,while I was laying down,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these unclean and unwholesome sexual images of other men.I prayed to my Heavenly Father for strength,which I asked for in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as I didn't want to give into any temptations.I am now in the starting process of showing these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I have now fully chosen to let my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ lead the way for me.I am now letting them take complete control and lead me in the right way to healing and wanting to become the whole man that I want to feel like and be.I want to get my true identity to come to the surface.I want to attain my true identity,which is male,as I am a male and aside from being my true identity,it is also my true sexual identity.Labels such as Heterosexual/Straight,Homosexual/Gay,including Bisexual,are just labels.Male is what I am and male is what I want to be as it is my true identity both gender and sexual.I felt much stronger after praying to my Heavenly Father for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also felt much better as I am now making it my resolve to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ more whenever temptation rears it's ugly head at me.Fellow blog followers,I am still going to ask y'all to continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Though I am praying and still working on making frequent prayer a part of my life,I still need prayers from all of you and some positive verbal support also.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting that much needed blood work done at the local hospital,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and put on my sweatsuit.Since I was feeling tired,I decided to lay down.I read for a bit before deciding to take a nap.I slept for about and hour and half before getting up and doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.I also relaxed while doing so.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was feeling tempted to act out with fantasies and lusting after other men that were clouding my mind.This time,I decided to turn the temptation over to my Heavenly Father.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I was also tempted to grab my genitals and manipulate them to these impure and unwholesome images.I also asked for strength to fight and resist that particular urge as well.After praying,I felt much better and also,much stronger.I felt and truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me the strength that I asked for as I felt it.I also didn't have any problems with temptation for the rest of the day.I simply went on with my day and I had no temptations to deal with.I actually felt better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ were leading the way for me.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is tomorrow and the days after that.I am still working on staying close to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and relying more on them than on my own wits and power.Last night,before going to sleep,I prayed to my Heavenly Father really hard.I unloaded more and more on him.I also asked him to remove any anger,unforgiveness and every sort of negative emotions that I felt against everybody that I knew.I poured my soul out to him and I left nothing out.I bared all and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me let go and rid myself of all the negative emotions and other negativeness that I had for many of the people that I knew and also,I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for forgiveness for even holding on to all of those things.When I was finished,I felt better and slept better than ever before.Fellow blog followers,while I am still working on drawing closer to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ in my daily life and in my striving to heal from this unwanted SSA,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.They both help keep me going.They also help increase my self confidence and self esteem.They also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA,which I do want to do.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a morning's trip to the local hospital to get some much needed blood work done,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ