Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went as well as usual.After that was over,I headed for a local kitchen for lunch.After eating lunch,I decided to take a drive to locate a church where a Celebrate Recovery group is being held this and every Friday.I succeeded in finding it and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to turn in some empty cans and bottles.After collecting the money for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and did some more personal PC work while relaxing for a bit.After that,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I got dressed and headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which also went wonderfully well.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into some night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the SSA struggle the most difficult of the two.I have to put up with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA and at times,it can be both energy draining and emotionally exhausting.Today,soon after I got out of bed,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images that were clouding my mind.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling and I prayed real hard for my Heavenly Father to forgive me.I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Later on in the day,I was plagued by the temptation to do it again,but this time,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and threw the terrible temptation on him.I asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist the overwhelming temptation that was trying to take over me.I threw it all on my Heavenly Father.In this way,I was showing that terrible temptation that I owned it and not it owning me.I prayed real hard for the strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.After I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and I also felt nothing in terms of temptations.I felt stronger and also,much better.Fellow blog followers,though I have been doing this and I am still working on it,I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things to help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue offering your prayerful and positive verbal support by leaving me a comment or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of attending a Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ