Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and put on my sweatsuit.Since I was feeling tired,I decided to lay down.I read for a bit before deciding to take a nap.I slept for about and hour and half before getting up and doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.I also relaxed while doing so.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was feeling tempted to act out with fantasies and lusting after other men that were clouding my mind.This time,I decided to turn the temptation over to my Heavenly Father.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I was also tempted to grab my genitals and manipulate them to these impure and unwholesome images.I also asked for strength to fight and resist that particular urge as well.After praying,I felt much better and also,much stronger.I felt and truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me the strength that I asked for as I felt it.I also didn't have any problems with temptation for the rest of the day.I simply went on with my day and I had no temptations to deal with.I actually felt better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ were leading the way for me.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is tomorrow and the days after that.I am still working on staying close to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and relying more on them than on my own wits and power.Last night,before going to sleep,I prayed to my Heavenly Father really hard.I unloaded more and more on him.I also asked him to remove any anger,unforgiveness and every sort of negative emotions that I felt against everybody that I knew.I poured my soul out to him and I left nothing out.I bared all and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me let go and rid myself of all the negative emotions and other negativeness that I had for many of the people that I knew and also,I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for forgiveness for even holding on to all of those things.When I was finished,I felt better and slept better than ever before.Fellow blog followers,while I am still working on drawing closer to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ in my daily life and in my striving to heal from this unwanted SSA,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.They both help keep me going.They also help increase my self confidence and self esteem.They also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA,which I do want to do.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a morning's trip to the local hospital to get some much needed blood work done,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ