Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and though originally I was going to go to the local hospital for that much needed blood work to be done,I chose to put it off until tomorrow as I wasn't up to doing it.I simply jumped into the shower and cleaned myself up.After that,I ate my usual quick breakfast and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Burger King for a sandwich.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and decided to do some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted again to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to these unclean and unwholesome images.Again,I turned the temptations over to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist these urges,which were pretty overwhelming.I asked for this strength in the name of my Heavenly Father's son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as these temptations were overwhelming and I also didn't want to grieve my Heavenly Father in any way by giving into these terrible temptations.I felt much better and much stronger after praying and I went on with my day.For the rest of the time being today,since I was out in the community,my mind was totally free of anything unclean,impure and unwholesome.I didn't want these unnatural desires that I have to won me.I wanted to show them that I owned them.Though I did escape unscathed today,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to my healing from this terrible SSA one day at a time.I also have to keep in mind that each and every time temptations are resisted,they can come back stronger than before and those terrible temptations can be very overwhelming at times.Fellow blog followers,while I am still working on the frequent prayers throughout the day for myself,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section as I do need some positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Please do both of these things for me as both would be appreciated.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to the local hospital and getting that much needed blood work done,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ