Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I was hoping to go to the local hospital for blood work,but had a pounding headache.I simply showered and had my usual quick breakfast,alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was done,I took something for my headache and I laid down for a while and when the pain was all gone,I got up and got dressed as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to the public library to print something important from my e-mail and after that,I did a little shopping at a Goodwill thrift store nearby.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed for a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light evening meal,I decided to relax and watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,while I was laying down,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these unclean and unwholesome sexual images of other men.I prayed to my Heavenly Father for strength,which I asked for in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as I didn't want to give into any temptations.I am now in the starting process of showing these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I have now fully chosen to let my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ lead the way for me.I am now letting them take complete control and lead me in the right way to healing and wanting to become the whole man that I want to feel like and be.I want to get my true identity to come to the surface.I want to attain my true identity,which is male,as I am a male and aside from being my true identity,it is also my true sexual identity.Labels such as Heterosexual/Straight,Homosexual/Gay,including Bisexual,are just labels.Male is what I am and male is what I want to be as it is my true identity both gender and sexual.I felt much stronger after praying to my Heavenly Father for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also felt much better as I am now making it my resolve to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ more whenever temptation rears it's ugly head at me.Fellow blog followers,I am still going to ask y'all to continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Though I am praying and still working on making frequent prayer a part of my life,I still need prayers from all of you and some positive verbal support also.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting that much needed blood work done at the local hospital,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ