Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things for today.I first went to the bank to withdrew some money.After doing that,I headed over to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I withdrew at the Where's George site.After that was done,I did more personal PC work and when that was done,I relaxed for a bit.
After eating early tonight,I left the house again to go to a Celebrate Recovery group in another area of the county where I live.I headed there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.I met some wonderful men there and I shared a lot.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the SSA struggle being my most difficult.Today,I was tempted only minimally to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect to this temptation to fantasize and lust.When the temptation hit,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I asked for the strength to fight and resist these temptations.I ask for this strength because I can't fight and resist without it.It is what the scripture at James 4:7b says about resisting the devil and he will flee from you.The thing is that Satan himself will run away from me for the time being,but he will come back and make the temptations even stronger.The more resistance is put up,the more stronger the temptation comes back because Satan and his minions make sure of that.I escaped today unscathed thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue in prayer for me and also,please don't be afraid of leaving me an encouraging word or two in the comments.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support real badly.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and please also continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of going to church on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ