Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day and it went okay.After it was over,I headed for home and relaxed for a bit while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree to pick up one more thing before heading back home.

When I got home,I showered and cleaned the bathtub.I then had my evening meal and I did a little vacuuming.I also did some more personal PC work,which included some recommended Holy Bible reading.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

In my last blog posts,I talked about being sexually abused in both physical and verbal senses.It wasn't grand nor pretty being sexually abused in any of these cases.As I said,sexual abuse can be the ultimate brainwash and make people think differently about themselves,especially if they've been abused in a Homosexual/Gay way by another man,such as myself.As i also said,I'm still recovery and I don't know if I'll ever fully recover,but only time will tell.

I will now talk about spiritual abuse.Yes,I too was abused in a spiritual sense.First,my father who claimed to be "Christian" physically and emotionally abused me.He also forcefully tried to indoctrinate me into believing his agenda.The thing is that I didn't believe in this sort of thing that he believed in.At that time,I was still a child and didn't really have a set or system of beliefs at that time.Though my mother rescued me,it was already too late as the damage was already done and I suffered a lot more abuse when I was rejected by my fellow peers and wasn't accepted.Then,when I was in my early 20's,I endured more spiritual abuse at the hands of the religious cult that I followed for two brief years.They too forcefully tried to indoctrinate me.Though I was enthusiastic and zealous for what I was learning from them,it all died when I was the victim of lies and other things,especially when someone poked their nose in my business in regards to things that I wrote in notebooks that I had written in and was the victim of false accusations and misunderstandings.Though I pleaded my innocence and tried to tell them that it wasn't what they thought,my pleas fell on death ears and that drove me away.I haven't followed them for twenty-three years,though I did almost rejoin nearly eight years later,I changed my mind when I heard about them hiding and protecting child molesters from authorities and doing nothing to protect their victims.This really angered me as how can they tell me that sexual activity out of wedlock is wrong,but condone pedophilia.Plus,since I too was the victim of a pedophile at three separate intervals of my life,this only made me even more angry.Thank goodness that I no longer follow any cults and have now found a wonderful Christian spiritual home.I made that a lesson learning experience about jumping on bandwagons without doing research first.I also now help other victims of that particular cult and it does make me feel a little good.

I still need prayers by every one of you.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to post something encouraging and spiritually upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.After that,a four day holiday weekend that I will so truly need after some hectic days over the last few weeks.FJ