Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed for my mechanic's garage to get one of my tires fixed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I had a light lunch.After that,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.When that was over,I headed out to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation for a second consecutive time I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men and again,I wound up ejaculating.I really felt miserable after that and after washing my hands,I pleaded to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and for his mercy upon me.I prayed real hard as I really wanted him to forgive me and be merciful to me.When I was finished,I felt much better and I truly believed and knew that I was forgiven.I really need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to really start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am really serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I really am.I want to heal and I want to overcome this terrible SSA.I can't keep going on this constant and destructive spiral of falling and asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.As I said,I need both of these types of support every day and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ