Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things planned for today.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up some things as I had a gift card to use there from the place where the groups that I go to meet.It was great to have some additional money to do some much needed shopping.After shopping at that particular supermarket,I went to another one to pick up a few more things and after paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.Admittedly,it was a little tricky driving today as a result of a small snow fall that happened overnight.The weather was cold and the roads were a little slippery.But I managed to get everything that needed to get done accomplished.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done today as well.
I was hoping to spend the entire rest of the evening at home,but I got called to babysit at my niece's house while she and her live in boyfriend went out for a while to visit with some people that they knew.I really didn't like this,but what can I do.I couldn't as well as can't be selfish and say no.I agreed and spent some time over there and babysat at the same time.I am just hoping that tomorrow my day will be uninterrupted by anything as I want to relax and take it easy tomorrow for the whole day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply bring it to both God and his son Jesus Christ in prayer and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,but it didn't last very long.When I started to sit up,the erection started to soften and I laid back down and went to sleep when it was fully soft.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation in the morning when I was still tired and sitting in a chair by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or near the point of orgasm and stopping.I did ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into that latter temptation and I did feel better.I am still asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog posts here and I am still asking that an encouraging word or two be posted in the comments section.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me as both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that many people visit my blog,but leave nothing in comments for me to be encouraged.Again,your encouraging words are desperately needed by me and also,your prayers as both of them help keep me going in this fight and more determined to overcome SSA.I will also keep praying.Thanks in advance to all of your for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual in the morning,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ