Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had yet another quiet day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After having myself a quick lunch at home,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,yet another quiet day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD and that isn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came over me again in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This one was a real throbber and I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I tossed and I turned and also sat up when it didn't work and as I sat up,the erection softened and after it was fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I had to keep up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ because the urges kept coming back.They were really attacking me on both sides and I really had to pour my soul out to God and his son Jesus Christ and I felt better each time.I kept it up all day and I the feelings were still the same.I am also again asking that everyone out there who follows and reads my blog posts to keep up in prayer to me and I am also again asking for positive and encouraging words in the comments section.Please pray for me and leave an encouraging word or two for me.Your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and my usual lunch at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ