Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-mart to pick up a few things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I changed into my home suit.I also did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I decided to relax and pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still on my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It never gets any easier for me as I go from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up for a while and didn't lay back down until the erection softened.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out by fantasies,including looking at online porn, and to indulge in masturbation at the same time.I threw every temptation that I had on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and asked him for strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me and I felt better afterwards.Though I have fallen several times as this year was starting to wind down,I am grateful that God forgives every fall and helps gives strength when asked in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Both of them are a wonderful help in this struggle against the terrible SSA.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and also,to please an encouraging word or two in the comments section.It is just that I get many visitors,but hardly any words of encouragement are left in the comments section.I would really appreciate some encouraging words in the comments section.Don't be shy.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me.Your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this struggle,and even more determined to continue in my journey out of this terrible SSA,and also to heal from all the hurts that caused me to have SSA and struggle with it.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ