Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things planned.I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that was done,I headed over to a nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while popping in a DVD and I watched it.
I ate light tonight because I went to church for the evening's New Year's Eve service and the service was wonderful.They also have a special New Year's Day service tomorrow that I also will be attending.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride,alongside the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,which makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This shows that I am not alone in this struggle as God and Christ both understand what I am going through and they both assist me whenever I need it.Thanks to both God and his son Christ for being there and for all that they provide to help me out.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away.I really felt miserable after I had done this and I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me when I did.It really brought me down as I really don't know what is constantly making me fall so much.I am thinking that it could be that it is the holiday season and as a result of my mother not being here with my family for the first time,I am really going through some very complex emotional patterns as a result.I am just hoping that I can get through the rest of the day and through tomorrow,the official end of the holiday season,without any more failings.I still kept up in prayer to God today and kept asking him for strength in the name of his son Christ Jesus to help me resist every temptation that came at me.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows my blog.Please keep praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time right now and I am also asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Again,my blog gets a lot of visitors,but nobody ever leaves anything in the comments section.Please pray and also,leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's New Year's Day church service and I am thinking of relaxing for the rest of the day and watching a DVD or two.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the first day of the new year ahead.FJ