Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my usual personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to visit with a friend and had a talk with him for a while.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Burger King for a sandwich as a quick lunch.After eating that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues unabated,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of talking with God and his son Christ Jesus about this particular struggle and feeling a little bit better knowing that I am not alone in this struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help get me through even the most difficult periods in this particular struggle.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,but fortunately,it didn't last very long.The erection softened within a few minutes of me waking up and when it was fully softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I really had to pray hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help keep me strong whenever these temptations tried to envelope me and/or tried to control me.I threw every one of them on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist each and every temptation that came at me from all sides.With this being the new year,the holiday season is practically over and I feel like that this is a renewed hope and resolution to try and stay strong whenever these terrible temptations came at me.I just keep asking God to continue strengthening me whenever these terrible temptations came around and I felt better after asking for that strength.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts.I also ask that you leave and encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as well.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going.Please pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and lunch later at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ