Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I was out collecting bottles around the community.I also managed to find some loose change on the ground,mostly pennies.After I had accumulated quite a bit,I turned them in at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills at the Where's George site.After that,I went back out to pick up something at a local Dollar Tree store.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I alos ask for strength to help me stay calm and also,to not let the negatives of this double whammy that I have try to bring me down.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and stayed sitting up until the erection softened.I got up out of bed and I walked for a while and that made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.Images of men in a sexual sense were really clouding my mind.I prayed and prayed to my Heavenly Father.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I didn't want to sin and give into these temptations.I felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am again asking that all of you please keep praying for me as I am going through this really difficult emotional time.Please keep praying for me.I also ask that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ