Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for the last Summer outdoor service,which are always held the last Sunday of each Summer month from June to August.
The worship service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the the local Big Lots to pick up a box of cereal.After paying for that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar General store to pick up one more thing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch as well.
I relaxed for much of the day and took it easy.
I did hear from that friend that I was hoping to re-connect with yesterday.He sent me an e-mail that he had to work overtime and that he was working out of state yesterday and didn't come home until the wee early morning hours.He apologized for that and he said that he was hoping that we can get together tomorrow afternoon.I told him that this would be okay.I am hoping that nothing comes up that prevents us from getting together after so long.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I then ask my Heavenly Father to help get me through the negatives in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat yup and proceeded to get up out of bed.This made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep when they were fully soft.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.This time,it wasn't so bad.I simply kept busy with my day.I relaxed and tried to think of more positive things and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.Still,I am again asking that all of you continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and continue praying for me.They both help keep me going in this fight.They also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting much needed blood work done at the local hospital,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ