Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I only had a few things to do today,I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I decided to take a trip around to see if a friend of mine was home,which he wasn't.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle and throw it on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does ease me a little bit.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for there and that is what made my genitals start to soften.They were fully soft when I was finished in the bathroom.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.However,I stayed out most of the day and didn't even think of anything sexual at all.I simply let the temptations slowly fade into nothing by simply staying out in the community and keeping my mind on other things.I also managed to watch a pretty good movie later on.Though I did get by without any falling into sins,I am still asking that all of you who regularly follow my blog to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.They both help out in many ways.Prayers and words of encouragement are very powerful weapons in the fight against this terrible SSA.For me,they both help keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also keep me motivated to continue on the journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ