Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After doing that,I headed straight to shower and after my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that was done,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also did some more personal PC work when that was over.
A little later on,I decided to go out and run a small errand.I went to the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around,but didn't buy anything.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,while still in bed,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitalia with sexual images of men clouding my mind.Fortunately,I again managed to stop myself before it went too far and I also felt really miserable after doing this.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was truly sorry for what I did wrong while in bed this morning.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I had no problems for the rest of the day as I went through the rest of the day and no temptations nor did anything lustful come into my mind.I went and simply did what I had to do and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.Still,I really need to get tough with myself and I really need to work on going to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I also need to find out why I keep giving into these terrible urges when they come around.I don't want to give into these terrible temptations anymore,but I keep giving into them and I don't know why.Again,I really need to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for that strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately and every day as I am still going through a very complex and difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ