Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I heard from the garage and my car simply needed a tune-up and it was done quickly.After that,I showered quickly and I got dressed.I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I walked over to the garage to pick up my car and after that,I decided to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had lots of grocery shopping to do as I was running out of food.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few packs of boneless meat steaks.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some cereal,milk,pickles and orange juice,alongside some personal stuff that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a pack of boneless chicken breasts.After paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating a light meal,I decided to do some more personal PC work and after that,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I also wound up ejaculating and I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself as a result.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.I left nothing out and I admitted everything.I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and after I was done,I felt better as I knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins and I moved on with the rest of the day.I have to watch myself when I get up out of bed in the mornings.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the morning time when I wake is the weakest time for me as my mind isn't fully awake,although I am up out of bed and my eyes are awake.I need to start jumping in the shower after having my usual 2 cups of coffee.I am still working on being tough with myself and do the needful things that I need to do in the morning so I don't give Satan and his minions what they want.Fellow blog followers,I really need your prayers right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your encouraging words help out a great deal and they also motivate me to keep going,alongside the prayers.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ