Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went outside to shovel snow on my driveway and my sidewalk for the mail people to come,which took me 45 minutes to do.After that was done,I went back into the house.
When I got back into the house,I heated up water in a cup in the microwave and made hot chocolate.I also popped some popcorn in the microwave and sat down to watch a movie that I bought yesterday.I also had another cup of hot chocolate as well.After the movie was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening while I was preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,while still in bed,I gave into the terrible temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I did feel really terrible after that.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to him.After I was finished,I felt better and truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but I have to keep in mind that there is tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real desperately as I need it both day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks so much in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of shoveling the driveway and the sidewalks again as result of the blizzard that my hometown is having now.I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ