Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had a couple cups of coffee.After that,I relaxed for a bit and had my usual quick breakfast.After I was done eating that,I decided to do some personal PC work and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished with my shower,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I decided to visit with a friend of mine who I hadn't spoken to in quite a while.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to relax and enjoy a little bit of music.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images and the temptation was really strong and unrelenting.I immediately threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges as they were very overwhelming.I prayed and prayed for that strength and I asked my Heavenly Father for it in the name of his Jesus Christ.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also,much stronger.I thanked my Heavenly Father for giving me the strength and went on with the rest of the day.Though I escaped today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as these urges can come when least expected.When they do,I will simply ask my Heavenly Father again for the strength to help me fight and resist these urges and I will ask for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Since renewing my resolve with my Heavenly Father,I have been feeling better and also,I know that he has been hearing me as I truly felt him today as I prayed for that strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges that came at me today.I am also going to ask that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day from my fellow blog followers,especially if they also struggle with SSA like I do and want to help others who also struggle,such as myself.I would really appreciate prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my Holy Bible study groups in the morning and evening,I haven't made any other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ