July 7th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the morning's worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did a reading from the Holy Bible today in front of the congregation.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I had no place to go for a while and I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I also relaxed and listened to some music.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I went to pick up my niece from where she was working.After she dropped me off at home,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride that at times gets very complicated.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure and get through this.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also to help keep me on a normal level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up in bed and sensing that I had to use the bathroom,I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom.As I did that,the erection started to slowly soften and when I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men and also,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to my heavenly Father throughout the day.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations that kept coming at me from all sides.I prayed really hard for this and when I was finished praying each time,I felt much stronger each time as I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I really need prayers real bad as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also could use some words of encouragement in the comments section as I really need some encouragement right now.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.I need both your prayers and your encouragement.They both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ