Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went over to my niece's house to pick up some of my laundry and after that,I dropped it off and I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the back seat of my car and after that,I headed straight home to register all of the bills at the Where's George website and after that,I headed back out again to a local bargain outlet store to pick up a giant jar of pasta sauce and after paying for that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk and a few other things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.I then relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or difficult for me to handle.When it seems to try to envelope me and make me feel worse,I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the rigamarole of this particular struggle and they both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and I headed for the bathroom,as I had to use it,and that helped soften the erection and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting after sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.I had to really pray hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations that were coming at from all sides.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help keep me strong and to help me fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and I did feel better and much stronger after I was finished praying each time.I didn't want to fall into anything sinful again like i did this week and I wanted to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and overcome this terrible SSA.I am again asking that all of you please keep up in praying for me as I am going through this difficult and emotionally trying time as I really and desperately need prayers from all of my fellow supporters and strugglers.Please keep me in your prayers as I am going through this difficult time.I also ask that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please offer some encouraging words in the comments section.They can be in the form of upbuilding with scriptures of something to help keep me going and to motivate me to keep up the fight.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also increase my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ