July 9th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work as I awaited my niece to call me and when she did,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
After dropping off my niece's car at her place,we went to a local repair garage to pick up my car as the starter had to replaced.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up something for lunch and after that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and caught up on some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.Whenever this particular struggle seems to try to get me down and make me emotionally exhausted,I simply take it to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and I ask them both to help get me through and endure all of these negatives and they both help in not only keeping me sustained,but also on a very calm and level plain.It shows that I don't have to struggle alone and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to walk a little and that made the erection soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father as these temptations were really overwhelming.I prayed for strength and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations and after I was finished praying each time,I felt much better and also,much stronger.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts regularly to please continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need both your prayers and your positive encouragement.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ