July 3rd

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a spirituality group at the place where the groups are at as tomorrow,the group place will be closed in observance of the holiday on the 4th tomorrow.
The group meeting was wonderful and after it was over,I was going to do a little bit of grocery shopping,but ran into some problems.
My car wouldn't start and I tried repeatedly to get it going,but nothing.I called my niece and she sent her former step-father to help,but he couldn't get it going either.We concluded that it could something wrong with the starter mechanism,such as the starter itself,or the starter cellnoid,or it could be a blown fuse of a starter relayer wire.He dropped me off at home as I had to abandon my car at the parking lot there and I also had to let the bank,which was in the same building where the group place.know about this so they wouldn't have my car towed away.
My niece is loaning me her car until my car is back on the road and I went and did the grocery sopping that I had to do and it was great to get it all done.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to get some stuff and at another local supermarket for more.After all of that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and finished my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty so-so day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to tale my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I ask them to help me endure and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to walk out of my room and the erection started to soften.After a while,my genitals were soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted pretty much throughout the day as the stressful things that were happening to me made my SSA skyrocket.I kept close to my Heavenly Father in prayer and kept asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to keep me strong and to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I did feel better and also much stronger.I am again asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both you prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and motivate me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I got invited out to dinner at a friend's house.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ