Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,and since I had the day off due to it being a holiday today,I did my personal PC work.I then got dressed and went outside to shovel some snow that fell last night and after that,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I relaxed while my face warmed-up after that and I went out to run a few errands.

I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I stopped at at a local Rite Aid to buy a few more needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had a light evening meal.

After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I need to be open right now.I have been struggling with intense anger and rage issues lately.Lately,I have been having a "couldn't care less" attitude about the people I work with and the clients of the facility.This is really bothering me.I am also feeling intense misery and sadness as a result of this thing.I have been muttering angry and uncaring words under my breath,especially at work.So far,none of the clients have reported this to the supervisor(s),but I'm afraid that one day,they will do so and then,I could be out of a job if this is brought to their attention,which is something I don't want to have happen.Right now,during this time of the year,employment opportunities are scarce and I can't afford to be out of a job at all.This is also making me ashamed and hateful of myself.I don't want to be out of a job.I also don't want to be in any other negative situation as a result of this.I need to eliminate this terrible problem to save myself and most importantly,to hold onto my job.I'm also starting to have a "can't stand the sight of them" attitude towards my co-workers and the clients themselves,which is also making me feel miserable and ashamed of myself.Again,I need and want to stop this terrible problem.I can't have this type of thing where I work,as again,it could mean that I lose my job and again,I don't want that to happen.I also don't know whether I'm coming or going as a result of this.

What's wrong with me?

Why can't I stop this?

If anyone has any advice on how I can,please share within the comments section.I also need all the prayerful support that I can get.Please continue praying for me because this is becoming a terrible and real struggle for me.Please pray for me that I stop and eliminate this terrible problem that I have.I'm desperate for anything helpful,both prayerful and positive verbal support,alongside any helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ