Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda.
I only did a couple of important things.I first went to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some money.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my usual daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions change and vary by the day or by the minute/moment.I never know how they will be and it can be very draining.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing these struggles to God and asking for help in keeping me clam and serene.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and while I was sitting up,the erection softened and I laid back down and fell back asleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day and I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.After each prayer,I did feel better.I kept it up throughout the day as I am still working on recovering from the emotional tailspin of the previous week.I am also continuing to ask all of you followers and readers of my blog to keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a lot of negative stuff.I am also asking that you all leave an encouraging word or two for me on my blog in the comments section as both your prayers and your positive encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets a lot of visitors,but usually,nobody leaves an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please leave an encouraging word in the comments section as I would really appreciate that and again,keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to go to the local hospital to get my esophagus checked out.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ