Tonight,my road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch afterwards.After lunch,I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one minute to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.It is a never ending thing.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel good.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night for the fourth consecutive time this week when I masturbated an erection away.I immediately prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and asked that he forgive me for giving into the temptation and I felt better after that.I went right back to sleep afterwards.Throughout the day,I was getting tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his Christ Jesus to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations that kept coming at me.I have really been tormented by temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and at times,the temptation can try to bring me down.I just kept throwing them on God and asking for strength to fight and resist the temptations.Temptations can be very terrible and I don't want to give into them at all,but I have been giving into them and I know that I have been forgiven for them as I can feel God put his hand on my shoulder when I ask to be forgiven.I am also again asking for prayers by those who follow my blog.Please continue to pray for me and also,I again ask that all of you who follow and read my blog or pay my blog a visit that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments sections.It is just that my blog gets plenty of visitors,but they usually don't leave me any encouraging words in the comments.Alongside prayers,positive words of encouragement also keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and keeps me even more determined to continue my goals in overcoming SSA and the unnatural desires connected with it.Again,please continue in prayers for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my building and improving self esteem group.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ