Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hurriedly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I first went to see my case worker and that meeting went as well as planned.After that,I went to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed over to a friend's place to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was about to relax and watch a DVD when the phone rang.It was my sister and she told me that my niece wasn't feeling well and was checking into the emergency ward at the local hospital.I had to pick up my niece's kids from school,drop them off at home and babysit them until my niece's live-in boyfriend came home from work.When he did,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my home suit and started to prepare dinner.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or at times by the minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply put the struggle in God's hands and ask him to get me through this in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is a simply a matter of talking to God to prayer in the name of his son Jesus Christ and feeling a little bit better as they take the wheel and lead the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I sat up for about 5 minutes and when the erection softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept up asking for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I kept it up all day as I was tempted throughout the day to act out by masturbating or by grabbing my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer and I felt better each time.I am also continuing to ask all of you who follow this blog of mine and read my posts to continue praying for me as I am still trying to overcome this complex emotional period that I am still going through.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your positive encouragement and prayers both help keep me going and even more determined to continue in my journey out of this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do as well.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ