Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving on.I had a pretty good,but stressful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my now usual 3 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local restaurant to have a sandwich as a late lunch.After that,I headed over to a local gas station to get a little bit of gas.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store and did some shopping there as well as a nearby local supermarket.After that was done,I decided to head straight home.
When I wanted to go home,I tried to start my car,but it wouldn't turn over.I tried every which way,but nothing.I called my niece and she and her live in boyfriend came over to help and tried every sort of thing to try and get my car running.I called my brother in-law and he suggested that we jump it and when we did,it started.After that,I headed over to a nearby Advanced Auto Parts to have it checked out.The verdict was that I needed a new battery and I went home to get the cash and I went and picked it up.After it was installed,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,but stressful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving on,I am still in a constant daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the struggle.My moods and/or emotions change from day to day or at times from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I tossed and I turned,but that only made it throb even more.I sat up and started to walk and as I walked,the erection softened and when it was fully soft,I went back to bed and back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still getting tempted throughout the day.I had temptations to grab my genitals and play with them while lusting after other men.I threw every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I asked for the strength to fight and resist the temptations as they came around.I hate it when temptation tries to envelope me and get me to sin against God.It is bad enough that I struggle with this terrible SSA,but to get tempted to act out in ways other than going out to seek a male partner to indulge in sinful sexual activity with can really make the struggle difficult.If I were to get that latter aforementioned temptation,I simply and willfully choose to stay home because I don't want to sin against God by indulging in that type of thing.It is wonderful that God gives strength to those who ask for it when it comes to fighting and resisting the temptations that come around.I am also going to again ask that prayers be said for me from those who continually follow my blog and read the posts.I also ask for some positive encouraging words by all of you as well.I see that my blog gets many visitors,but usually nobody leaves any encouraging words or anything positive for me to be upbuilded and to keep me going in this struggle against this terrible SSA.I would please appreciate a positive comment or two to keep me going and to keep me more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for leaving a positive comment or two in the comments section and for your continuous prayers.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ