Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my building and improving self esteem group,which went better than I expected it to go.After that,I decided to head over to a friend's place to see how they were doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed over to the post office to mail out an important letter.After that was done,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still on my constant daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.The complex emotional patterns that anyone who struggles with this type of thing is very difficult to deal with or handle.I also have schizophrenic tendencies,which makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.While that is so,I am still continuing to rely more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggles seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength in fighting and resisting this terrible urge.The more I keep resisting,the more stronger the temptations become and this urge was no exception.I sat up for a while and didn't go back to sleep until my genitals fully softened.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and again,these temptations keep getting stronger with every resistance that I make.I threw every temptation on God and asked him in his son Christ Jesus' name to give me the strength to help me fight and resist every temptation that came at me.I felt better after that as the temptations were always reduced to nil.Temptation always hounds me throughout the day,but I keep throwing them on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel better as God gives me the strength to fight and resist all temptation when I ask him for it.I am also again asking for prayers and words of encouragement by everyone who follows and reads my blog.It is just that I get many visitors,but almost nobody leaves me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section and also,keep up in prayers for me as I am going through these unwelcome temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ