Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day,though I didn't have too much planned.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I had forgotten yesterday.After paying for that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still on a daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or my emotions will be from one day to the next or from one minute/moment to the next.It is a very complex thing this emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of talking to God and having him and his son Christ Jesus help keep me at a level where I can better manage the symptoms.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though this time,it didn't last very long.I simply sat up for only a few minutes and the erection softened.I went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was still getting tempted throughout the day as temptations really started coming at me.I threw every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept up asking for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I get tempted to act out in many ways and I keep throwing every temptation on both God and his son Jesus Christ and I continually ask for strength to help me fight and resist every temptation.While I have been doing that,I am again continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog.I also ask for encouraging words in the comments section.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and positive encouragement help keep me going in this fight against these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to everyone for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Thursday Spirituality group and lunch later in at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ