Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have much planned for today.I simply used the day to pay a couple of bills that needed to be paid.After paying those bills,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to do a little bit more grocery shopping and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket across the street to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those things,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some money and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I proceeded to fold all of my clean laundry and put everything in their proper places.I also listened to a little bit of Christian/Gospel music while doing all of that.After I was done,I also said a little prayer to God and I felt better.After that,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in a constant struggle against the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions change from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.I never know how they will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my recovery even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I never have to worry as they are always there to help.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming temptation as it was really strong.It was so bad that I had to go to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus in prayer to help get me through the temptation.I kept talking about it with God in the name of son Jesus Christ until the erection fully softened.I went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and genital manipulation,but I kept throwing everything on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I also asked for strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.I always felt better and I was glad.I am also continuing to ask all of you who follow my blog to keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your positive encouragement help keep me going.So,please keep up your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help get me through the never ending cycles of temptation.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ