Tonight,my road to recovery continues marching forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my bath,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first had to go to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and after that,I headed over to the post office to mail out an important letter.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and relaxed for a short time.
I also had one more thing on my agenda.I had an appointment for my one on one study class with the pastor over at the church.When the time came for that,I headed over to the church to meet with him and study the material that he assigned me to read every week.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and I also watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to march forward and it is still a very rocky road at that.I have to continually put up with the symptoms of BPD and the struggle with that is never easy.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.But again,I am simply relying on God more than on my own strength and power.Since doing that,I am having a much better time working on managing this stuff.It doesn't make it easier,but it does make it only a tad bearable.It is tough going through what I have to go through,but with God and his son Jesus Christ taking over,I have nothing to worry about.I simply throw it on God and for his help in the name of his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another throbbing erection.The temptation to masturbate it away was very overwhelming.I had to really fight to resist this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one.I simply got up to use the bathroom and after I was finished,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,the temptation to act out,no matter what form of acting out it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Day after day,I get the temptation to act out on thee unnatural desires that I have and I am always in the fight to do what is right.Still,all I do is that I throw it all on God and ask him to keep me strong.I simply do that and after talking with him about it,I feel much better.All it takes is approaching him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and when I put it in their hands,it is like that a big weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.I feel better and I can go on with the rest of the day.Now,I simply rely on God and he gets me through the temptation with the power of his son Jesus Christ working alongside him.Thanks go to God and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ