Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed out.I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local bakery to have a loaf of bread,that I picked up at the local kitchen,sliced.After that,I headed for the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and drop some stuff off.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I laid down and read for a while.When I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and my most difficult struggle of the two,SSA.Today,I again gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Yes,I also gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I prayed.I admitted everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I truly believed that I was forgiven.I know that I have said this quite a few times,but I feel that I need to,as I really need to start getting really tough with myself,because I keep getting tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and I keep giving into that terrible temptation.I don't know why.I want to find out why,but I don't know how to find out why.Maybe if I find out why,I can stop giving into it and maybe get a resolution to this terrible problem and start seriously healing from this terrible SSA and start overcoming it and start really progressing.I need prayers real badly right now.I also need some serious positive verbal support right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I badly need both types of support right now as I really need to get to the bottom of this problem that I have.I want to stop giving into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued and much needed prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ