Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to the monthly Men's Network meeting.
The meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store in the area where the meeting was and I bought a few things.After that,I headed to the public library in the area to print a couple of online articles to read.After that,I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart when I got back into my area and picked up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I laid down to read for a while.After this,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I also laid down again and read a little bit more.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle of the two.Yes,it is.At times,the SSA struggles gets so difficult that I don't know whether I am coming or going.Today,I was overwhelmed again with temptation and they can get very strong at times.Today,I was tempted left and right to act out by fantasies and lusting.I was also tempted to manipulate my private parts at the same time.I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this.I hate that I have these unnatural sexual desires.I also hate it that I find members of my own gender sexually attractive.I know for those out in the world who have these same attractions,it is a cause for living it up and celebrating,but for me,I am a believer in the sovereign Lord and creator,my Heavenly Father and his son,the Lord and savior Jesus Christ,as my Heavenly Father condemns the sexual practices that are connected with this condition.His sacred word,the Holy Bible,condemns these sexual practices and calls them sinful.I believe and know that the sexual activity associated with Homosexuality is sinful,unnatural and above all,wrong.I am in a constant war with these unnatural sexual desires that I have and the war can be very difficult to fight every day.I am always working on not letting these unnatural sexual desires own me because I want to own them.I am still hoping that one day,I can really feel healing from these desires and also,I want to accomplish the goal of fully overcoming this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.It both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone.Please keep your support coming.I so desperately need it as I am going through a very rough and difficult emotional time in my life at the moment.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ