Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I got a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach and she told me that I had an interview for a job today and after hanging up,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and after that,while getting dressed in dress clothes,I got another phone call from her and she told me to meet her at the agency and after that,follow her to where the interview was,which I did.
The interview went by quickly and my job placement counselor/coach let me know that she would get back to me by the end of the day and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and after that,I headed out to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that,I headed to a gas station to get gas and after that,I went to the public library to register the bills that I got in change after getting gas.After that,I stopped at a used book store and I bought four record albums.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work while awaiting my job placement counselor/coach to call me,but I didn't hear from her.I called the agency and left a message on her voice-mail and after that,I cleaned the kitchen sink and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little music and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two struggles for me.Today,I gave into temptation by masturbating to sexual images of men clouding my mind.Yes,I fantasized and lusted after other men and I was really ashamed of myself and felt sorrowful.After cleaning my hands,I immediately went my Heavenly Father in prayer and I prayed for forgiveness and mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I unloaded everything and accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough on myself.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,but I am not doing a very good job at it.I want to do a good job,but my sinful nature prevents me.I need to get back on track and work on my goals to overcome and heal from SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Your support is very important to me.I get a lot of visitors,but the visitors rarely post anything.Positive verbal support both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your prayers and verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ