Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded to head over to a local kitchen in my hometown for free food day.When I arrived there,I was given a number and waited for a while to sign in.After signing in,I headed out to get my free food.I also got a bag lunch as a bonus.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up another gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the food away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some more running and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.While doing that,I prepared my evening meal and while and after eating,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.I also watched another one after that.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.They are always on an up and down scale.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,my struggle is even more tougher as a result of the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and I headed for the bathroom and that made the erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,it wasn't too big a deal.I stayed out in the community and kept busy just doing what I was doing and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I stayed out and about and that took my mind off of the sexual stuff.It was great not to have a problem by simply staying out and staying busy.While I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please ease continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination and motivation in this particular struggle.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ