Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I had my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I headed over there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I dropped a friend off at home before heading to my own home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into a home suit.After that,I did some more personal PC work before relaxing while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I got dressed again and decided to head for an evening Holy Bible study class,which was at the same place as last week.
That class went great and after it was over,I headed straight and when I got there,I changed into my pajamas and relaxed until it was time for bed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.The struggle with BPD is never an easy thing to deal with.My Moods and/or emotions fluctuate constantly by the day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult to deal with.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw it on my Heavenly Father in prayer as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negatives in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in not only sustaining me,but I also feel more at ease and much calmer.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.At this point,I sensed that I had to really use the bathroom,so I headed for there and though it was slow going,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals returned to full softness and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,I was out for much of the day and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I had my bible study group today and that took my mind off of these things.I also was out in the community for a while after that and that kept my mind clean and focused on other things.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very rough and difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I desperately need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ