Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned.
For starters,I went to my usual Monday afternoon groups.These were groups that I needed to attend and they both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that I needed.After I was done shopping at them,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was strong,but not as strong as previous times.I still had the urge to masturbate by manipulating my genitals to get them hard or near hardness for that purpose,but I fought it and I did get through it.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than searching for male partners to act out with can be very strong at times.I managed to make it through today,but tomorrow and the day after that and so are new challenges.Each and every day is it's own challenge.I have top fight the urge whenever it comes over me.I have to keep on fighting and keep on enduring whenever the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.I have to hang in there and simply tough it out.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ