Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first went to the drug store to pick up a prescription and after paying the co-pay on it,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I fixed myself a light lunch and while eating it,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I watched it.I also relaxed and enjoyed every minute.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible in as well.
While my road to recovery continues onward,though still rocky,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.While it is bad enough that this emotional roller coaster ride is an unpredictable thing,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult as I also have to put up with hearing things,such as voices and sounds that nobody else hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle gets seemingly too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of talking about the struggle and asking for strength in dealing with it effectively.I also feel a tad better after talking about it with them.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This was the strongest urge that I have had in a long time.This time,I had to really pray hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one at that.I prayed and prayed until the erection softened and after that,I simply got up to use the bathroom as I had to do so and after I was finished,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it makes itself to be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation can come when least expected.I am always at war with these unnatural desires that I have and at times,the fight against them can be very difficult.When it does get very difficult,I simply turn to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through it.I simply talk about any temptation that comes around with God and ask him to get me through in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better.I throw every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better as I also ask for strength to help me fight and resist any temptation that comes around.I am always praying throughout the day to ask God to help me get through the temptations when they come around.I am also still asking for those who follow my blog and read it to say prayers for me as well and also,please put some encouraging words in the comments as well.They are both appreciated and Thanks in advance for all of them.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ