Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is still ongoing.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I immediately got dressed up in a suit and headed for church.As usual,I attended both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers in Christ,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my prescription and a couple of medicines for colds.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit and did my personal PC work.It was a lot,but I got it done.After that,I called my sister and I arranged to pick up her house key so I can go into her house and do my laundry.
It took an hour and a half,but I got it done,After that,I returned my sister's house key to her and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my laundry bag away and decided to fold the laundry up and sort it out tomorrow after I get home from my group.After doing that,I relaxed and popped A DVD into the DVD player to watch it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work,Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.Since returning to church over a year ago,I have really been enjoying my worship and also feeling the love,friendliness and acceptance by everyone that I worship with.Though today was a dismal rainy day,I still felt great as a result of me going to church today and really getting my spirituality fulfilled.The church I worship at,the worship is truly a joy indeed and I have been enjoying it each and every minute of going to church each and every Sunday.I have a feeling that these joyful feelings that I have been experiencing are going to continue for a long time to come and perhaps the rest of my life on this very Earth that I am living on.I am also still keeping up on daily Holy Bible readings and constantly praying to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ each and every day.I now know and truly believe that the Lord Jesus and his father led me there.Thanks to them for doing so.
While my road to recovery is still ongoing,it is still a rocky road indeed.I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory on a one day at a time basis.It is never an easy thing to deal with and it can get very difficult.I never how my moods or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggles seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggle with God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and after that,I feel a tad better.It is simply a matter of asking God in his son Christ's name to help sustain me in my struggle and keep me on an even level.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated.I really felt miserable for falling and I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling.I also prayed to God in the name of Christ later on when guilt started to set in later on and I felt better after that.This really shows that I really have to ask God in the name of his son Christ Jesus to really help me to fight and resist the urges that come around when least expected.I have to learn to go to God whenever this happens.Throughout the day,I was tempted again and I continually asked God to help give me the strength to fight and resist these urges.I am also asking for prayers by those who follow my blog and read the posts for prayers.Thanks to everyone in advance for them and I am going to continue in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ myself.Thanks to both God and Christ for their help.
Tomorrow,I have a building and improving self esteem group and I am hoping to get a lot out of it.As for the rest of the day,I am going to stay home and simply sort out and fold all of my laundry.I will then relax and watch a DVD or two.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ