Happy Halloween to everyone out in the world.
Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things planned.The most important thing was that I had to take my car to a garage where my sister does business with and have them do that much needed repair work that I needed so my car could pass inspection this year.It was to replace the passenger side ball joint.It took about an hour and it was finished.After paying for the repairs,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I went to a local supermarket to pick up one more thing.After paying for those items,I got some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I had lunch.After lunch,I watched some Halloween themed specials on DVD.After that was done,I finished my personal PC work.I even managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also watched a few old reruns on TV.I also watched one more Halloween themed special DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to move forward,the road is still a little rocky.I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods or even my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me through and after that,I feel a little bit better as they help in sustaining me.It shows that I have nothing to worry about and I am not alone in my struggle.I feel better knowing that God and Christ are there.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection softened and after that,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though Ii did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in genital manipulation for the purpose of getting them erect or at the point of orgasm and stopping.But I kept throwing it all on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the temptation and to give me strength to fight and resist each and every urge.I always felt better after praying hard about the temptation and asking God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help strengthen me to fight and resist the temptation to indulge in impure and unclean follies such as masturbation or simply manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect to masturbate or to the point of orgasm and stopping.After that,the temptations are reduced to nil.I am also still asking for prayers from everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts and also,asking for some encouraging comments and support.Thanks in advance for everything provided by my followers and readers.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group in the morning,followed by lunch at a local kitchen.I also have an appointment to meet with a case worker.As for the rest of the day,I am just going to stay home,relax and take it easy.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ