Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,despite a rocky road.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda today.I first went to my building and improving self esteem group and that went as well as expected.After the group,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of skim milk and after paying for that,I headed over to the local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few other things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home to stay as there was a high wind warning going into effect in the mid afternoon and it would also be rainy throughout the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.After that,I did some recommended Holy Bible reading while waiting for the oven to heat up so I could prepare dinner.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after watching some classic TV reruns on TV LAND,I watched another movie that I popped into the DVD player.Overall,a pretty fair day as a result of the remnants of Hurricane Sandy coming into my area with the high winds and all the rain.When something like this happens,there really isn't an awful lot to do at all,except to just stay home and make the best of the negative situation.That is what I did.I simply stayed home and watched a couple of movies and I enjoyed myself.
While my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods or even my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I also continue to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting to unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of talking to God whenever the emotional roller coaster ride or the hallucinations seem to be getting unbearable.It is great that I have them to go to whenever the struggle gets really difficult.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation again early this morning when I masturbated an erection away.I really felt miserable when I fell short and I immediately asked God in the name in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling short and I really felt better knowing that I was forgiven.Throughout the day,I was being tempted to act out in many ways and I kept throwing every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and each and every time,I felt better as the temptation was reduced to nil.I did it throughout the day and I felt better.It is a relief that I don't have to suffer guilt anymore as a result of failing and that is great.Thanks again to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have to take my car to a local garage to get inspected and I am hoping that it works out well.I am just going to relax and take it easy for the rest of the day after that.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ